Darkness' Treasures

Mining Below

There is a Facebook reminder informing again that I haven't posted anything for a while.

BUT my heart just wants to sidestep the excessive noise, performance mentality, and productivity measurement orientation.

To listen instead of contributing further to this online clamour that I can barely comprehend and am trying to avoid.

Where am I?

Where is my voice?

I am OK with just sitting...

In all the mess and uncertainty.

Sitting in this reduced locked in space.

Not making efforts to escape, medicate, or endure.

Not waiting for announcements of change nor making plans, lists or even dreaming ahead.

Problem solving strategies have ceased.

I am here in this moment.

Living.

Breathing.

Absorbing all that it is.

My former perspectives and habits exposed!

Conforming to a shape beyond our design takes a toll.

Following the wrong slipstream is a dangerous compromise for a race you can never win.

The tendency to slide along with the system and its dysfunction, ignoring how the mind and body try to repel tidal forces.

The shift I have waited and prayed for has now totally removed the goal posts.

This is the gift.

What I have right now;

A choice to see it in each moment!

Fullness, abundance!

A different view and experience if I will embrace it without hesitation.

This is where life is happening; behind our closed front gate, beyond screen video calls and beneath facemasks.

The hidden things that cannot be seen, or fully expressed....taking place below the surface.

Underground momentum.

The deep longing for green life afresh in my dried up places.

I am learning so much in my little urban garden (outside and within!)

Living lessons of soil, rocks and stones, waiting, expectations, investment, nurturing, fragility, weeds, watering, disappointment...,

The list goes on mirroring so many things I have repeatedly wrestled.

But now I am out of the ring.

The game has stopped.

No players.

No timer.

No loser.

No 'likes' or 'thumbs up' to value what is being accomplished....

Perhaps it will never be fully seen, appreciated or even known.....but roots extend wider and gradually I am climbing upwards towards the light.

"I will give you the treasures of darkness and hidden riches of secret places, That you may know that I, the LORD, Who call you by your name, Am the God of Israel."

Isaiah 45:3